Prayer and Fast Day 6- Wake Up Call

I have never been so shaken to my core from a dream that seem so real and it wasn’t a nightmare. The problem was that it was a nightmare for the other person in the dream and I was the monster! I was ruining my ex-boyfriends current girlfriend’s life; and in the dream I was totally oblivious to it! I couldn’t go back to sleep. To someone else, this sounds like nothing but to me it feels like a wake-up call. I need to let go completely. That little remnant, that little remainder of hope that we still carry needs to be killed, destroyed. The funny thing is that I have no one to talk to about this but the Lord. I remember hearing that God would put you in a place where you can’t go to anyone else but Him. It’s then when you get your release, because you went to the One person who can take care of it all.

Time to Think

After the run in with my ex, I started to think about the past relationships that I have been in that I am still attached to. I always remember the bible verse Mark 9:29b “…This kind can come forth by nothing, but prayer and fasting.” I am going into 9 days of prayer and fasting asking and seeking the Lord to remove all attachments that I have formed in the past that a remnant and residue still in me and my life. I need to be able to be completely free and I feel the only way I can do that is to be free from it all. So pray for me and my strength as I start my fast tomorrow and end it next week.

Crunch Time

Today is the last lap. We have to make sure that everything comes together for my best friend. I just picked up the sari and her jewelry and it absolutely amazing! She is going to be so excited and happy tomorrow. When I see her face tomorrow, all our hard work will so be worth it. So I saw my ex today and I realize that he hasn’t gotten over me. How do I know? He told me. SMH, you know the lyric to that song “don’t it always seem to go that you don’t know what you got till it’s gone” that seems to be his song for the past year and a half. I don’t understand; if he keeps on holding on to the past he won’t be able to move into the future. And we won’t be able to be friends. I don’t want any emotional attachments anymore, its unnecessary baggage.