The Day Is Here.......

The dinner is tonight. It’s 4:00pm and already enough drama has happened that I just want to climb into bed and stay there; but God is good! I am so excited! I have my vintage red Saks Fifth Avenue dress, my Grecian headband, my grandma’s necklace (may she rest in piece) and I am ready to eat, eat and eat! I never set up a dinner before and I hope it goes off without a hitch. Into you hands, I place this dinner….lol. Well, keep me in prayer. I am exhausted. I have to make sure I look awake for all those pictures that will be plastered all over Facebook.

What Can I Say?

As each day passes and I deal with the drama and emotions of learning something new about the happy couple; I can’t help but wonder; what will it feel like? I was supposed to meet with “Richard” of the new couple to finalize the shirts and I got so nervous that my stomach was doing serious flips. I don’t know. I feel weird to think about him. He’s taken now and I wouldn’t want anyone thinking of my boyfriend. Don’t you agree? The rehearsal dinner is tomorrow and it’s going to take a lot of work for me to look forward to it, I just want it to come and go. So sorry to say, I can’t wait until the ceremony and reception is over. SMH. I dislike being negative. Keep the prayer there.

What Doesn't Kill You...

I doubt it but maybe it's true. It can’t kill me physically but it can kill me emotionally. I am trying to find the right words to say that would make it feel less than it is, but even the little things that are done hurt me. I asked God to remove whatever that I feel that isn’t from Him; but yet the feelings remain. Now I have to deal with it and watch it unfold in front of me. I feel like Anne Elliot in Persuasion when she watches Captain Wentworth with Louisa Musgrove interact with each other and don’t acknowledge her….sigh… I am sure this will pass, and I will look back and laugh at this.