What Doesn't Kill You...

I doubt it but maybe it's true. It can’t kill me physically but it can kill me emotionally. I am trying to find the right words to say that would make it feel less than it is, but even the little things that are done hurt me. I asked God to remove whatever that I feel that isn’t from Him; but yet the feelings remain. Now I have to deal with it and watch it unfold in front of me. I feel like Anne Elliot in Persuasion when she watches Captain Wentworth with Louisa Musgrove interact with each other and don’t acknowledge her….sigh… I am sure this will pass, and I will look back and laugh at this.

I'm Having A Sigh Moment

So I have this routine every Sunday morning: I get up, get my outfit out, shower, watch Joel Osteen......and watch Persuasion (2007 version). I know, where does that fit in? It doesn't. It's just a calm show to have on with all the junk on TV these days especially on Sundays. But, I love the part when Captain Wentworth writes the letter to Anne and she runs to find him.....that's where the sigh comes in. His letter is amazing! "....You pierce my soul. I am half agony, half hope. Tell me not that I am too late, that such precious feelings are gone for ever. I offer myself to you again with a heart even more your own than when you almost broke it, eight years and a half ago. ....I have loved none but you. Unjust I may have been, weak and resentful I have been, but never inconstant. You alone have brought me to Bath. For you alone, I think and plan.....I can hardly write... I must go, uncertain of my fate.... A word, a look, will be enough to decide whether I enter your father's house this evening or never." Do you see what I mean? ..Sigh... I will always love this letter.....sigh... I am done now, lol.