My Top 10 Fav Songs- June 2009

Here we go; a couple of newbie’s made the list:

1. Danyew- Streetlights
Can I say I absolutely love him and it was right after I heard the song? I downloaded the song and never really had a chance to listen to it and then it played….the rest is history. It feels so good to listen to good music that also exalts the Lord.

2. Francesca Battistelli- Free To Be Me
I found this song on one of my Youth member’s iPod. I loved it, I like the fact that she is saying because He died, and she is free to be who she is. In Christ there is liberty and nothing beats Christ.

3. Grey Holiday- You Belong to Me
I personally like this song. This song speaks to the Prodigal Son in all of us. We run from God and He’s just patiently waiting for us to come back home. I am so upset that they disbanded. Argh!


4. Stacie Orrico- I Could Be the One
This is an oldie but goody! I was playing her album in my room and kept playing this song over and over. In this song she is saying that she could be the one that God uses; she isn’t thinking that she’s nothing. If God can use a donkey he can definitely use us.

5. DC Talk- Godsend
The first Christian love song I fell in love with. To call someone your Godsend, the person God especially sent apart for you sounds so much better then a soul mate. I remember the first time I heard this song I literally put my hand on my heart and started to swoon, lol. I love this song.

6. Audio Adrenaline- Ocean Floor
This song is definitely one of those songs that make you want to cry. This song talks about how our sins, wrong doings etc. are forgiven and at the bottom of the ocean floor. I am so happy for Grace. God is so good!

7. Point of Grace- How You Live (Turn Up the Music)
I used to play this song when my grandmother first past. She was a beautiful and amazing woman. It’s been a year this month, but it still feels like yesterday. The song tells you to live each day to the fullest because it doesn’t matter who your friends were but how you lived your life.

8. Bethany Dillon- Holy Is the Lord
I love worship songs by other genres. This song is so beautiful! Our Lord is so amazing and He requires so much from us but no matter what He is still holy.

9. Jennifer Knapp- Say Won’t You Say
This is another oldie. I will always like this song; it has the ability to always stick in my head.

10. The Elms- Hey, Hey
This was the first Elms song I ever heard. I was on the WOW mix. I wanted to know more about them because I liked their style, and I still do.

I hope you liked my selection. Next month will have a lot of new artists.

If You Just Realized What I Just Realized.....

I would have been the first to admit that I didn’t think anyone would miss me while I was on vacation, but I was wrong. I didn’t realize how much I was appreciated or better yet, how much I missed the job. I guess absence does make the heart grow fonder, lol. On Saturday, my girlfriend and I were talking about my past relationship and why it is a hindering block to my future one. We were discussing that my mind frame is still in the past and I need release to be able to look to the present. Thinking about it now, I couldn’t agree more. I am going to be honest: I have a problem with looking into the future. I know who I am supposed to be with; but I am afraid to see myself with them because I look at it as a hindering block. I remember God was dealing with me on that subject. Last week, I was twisting and turning and was upset when he popped into my head. Then God asked me why I couldn’t see myself with what he has given me? I mean, when we know we were getting a bike or a new gift as a kid or a new thing as an adult; we envision ourselves with it, thinking about how we will look with it, what we would do, etc. so why couldn’t I do it now? I realized while God had forgiven me about my past and placed it in the sea of forgetfulness; I have held on to it and turned it into my handicap.

It Takes A Little Time Sometimes....

Today is one of my spiritual older sister 12 year anniversary. I am so happy for her. It just goes to show you what happens when you make God your foundation. She still gets giddy when she talks about him, and she respects him. I look at them and I realize you can see the difference between a Christian couple and a secular couple. My Bishop and First Lady have been married for over 40 years. They still look at each other with respect and adoration….. It’s sickening sometimes (just kidding). We had a meeting for our upcoming Women’s Conference to go over the last minute details and ended up talking about relationships. It’s been a regular thing now, there’s a bulk of the youth that has hit that point so of course it will be always in the air. The end result was my cousin and I went to our friend’s house to watch this seminar by a minister from Ohio about Love, Sex and Relationships. All I can say is “ “. I am totally speechless. It was so amazing and it was just the introduction! The seminar has 10 parts; I am so excited to see the next…. Well, I have work in the morning, be blessed.

Here Comes the Brides!

Today was actually fun! I have a lot of ideas for my cousins wedding (she asked me to be the planner and help her out because I know her like the back of my hand). It is so funny how quickly things are happening. One minute we think boys are ugly and have cooties, the next minute we can’t wait to find our help mate. In the midst of the entire wedding craze and the constantly telling all the vendors at the Expo that I am not a bride but a friend there for support, I found myself at peace with it all. Right now, it’s not my season for a relationship. I am in my winter season; things are dying and cold but it’s a season that must happen so I can get to spring. I know that when its time, its time; but right now I am content. That’s the best way you can be.

Last Minute Prepping

Today consists of sorting laundry, food shopping for the next two weeks, and a hair appointment. I realized that I am one of those demented people who like to actually be busy (I know, I’m neurotic). I am looking forward to tomorrow, I will be going to the Bridal Expo with my girlfriend’s (I have one friend getting married in August, the other next September) and I will actually enjoy myself. Today in Youth Service we talked about Evangelism. Over the next couple of months, we will be evangelizing in different locations in Brooklyn. We will also have a couple of Outreach services where we have service outside of our church. We decided to make things interesting and do one night for girls and one for the guys. I can’t wait to see what they have to offer.

The Bay Bitch

I went into The Bay yesterday to buy some cute fishnets for the stagette I'm attending tonight. After looking around for a while I chose 3 pairs. One of them had no price tag, so I checked the other packages and they didn't either. I looked for a sign and the only one I saw was "Buy one get one half off" so I proceeded to the check-out thinking that they couldn't cost too much.

When I got to the check-out (I had gone to the upstairs one since it was on my way out) the cashier pointed out to me that there was no price tag so I told her that I knew and couldn't find a price. She was like "Ok, so I'll have to go downstairs to see."

So she rang in the other two pairs and told me the price. I asked her "Um, what about the third pair?" to which she replied "Oh well you'll have to go downstairs to that section and pay for that since I don't know the price."

I looked at her funny, like "yeah, I'm REALLY going to wait in line then pay for two pairs here then go downstairs to find someone then wait in line to pay for a third pair" so she said she'll try to call down to that section even though no one usually answers there. After calling she told me "See... I told you they never answer, you'll have to go down there."

I was trying to ask her if she could call down to the downstairs check-out (as opposed to underwear section) and she interrupted me and was like "I JUST did and I TOLD you they didn't reply!"

Then she said "When you were down there didn't you look around to see if you could find someone to tell you the price?" I said "No." (Well you JUST told me that no one is ever in that section... so who would I have found to ask you cow?)

She told me again that I'll have to go down there, find someone to ask the price and pay downstairs.

There is no way in hell I was gonna do that.

I said to her: "Well as someone shopping in a store I don't think it's my job to do that."

She walked off in a huff to go downstairs and check saying "Well the price should have been on there in the first place!" (NO SHIT... Thank your store for that, it's not my fault!)

She finally came back with a similar pair that had a tag on it and was cordial from then on.

Hope you're looking forward to a strongly worded letter Bay Bitch! Sure, maybe I'd be a bitch too if I was 45 and earning $10 an hour... but don't take it out on me!

There is NO way she would have treated an older adult like this... it's complete bullshit.

The Punk

I was cleaning a 17-year-old's teeth the other day and he tells me that I'm polishing wrong. He says "You do it differently than the others, they get it into the crevasses more." He then proceeds to demonstrate in the air for me. I tell him "That's what I am doing." He says "That's not what it feels like."

OK buds!

Then a couple minutes later he asks me: "So are you an intern or something?" To which I reply "Um no... I work here."

GRRR!

A few minutes later he asks another question: "So do you need to have like formal training to work here?"

COME ON!!

I answer "Yes, I went to school for about 5 years."

Then when he's leaving he asks me how old I am so I tell him 25. He says kind of dejected "Oh."

Apparently he wouldn't have been mouthing me off if he didn't think I was around 19. I know I look young... but show some respect! I have sharp instruments in your mouth and I can cause some serious damage!

Celebration of Life and Death of a King

Today is my cousins’ 26th birthday. She is going out on a hot date, lol. Well it’s not a date; they are meeting up for her birthday at The Olive Garden. I know that this time next year things will so different. My cousin and best friend will be married, my other best friend will be planning her marriage and where will I be? Hmm…. something to ponder. Today Michael Jackson and Farrah Fawcett died, while everyone is talking about their legacy I am wondering if they will be in heaven or hell. Time waits for no one; and it best to live each moment as if it’s your last. I want when its time to go that I regret nothing but thank God for everything……Well my vacation ends tomorrow and I will be at work starting Monday, so I will enjoy my last day off tomorrow.

I'm Going to Be Honest

The Lord has been dealing with me about a certain area of my life where I can truly say I lack faith in: my love life. I will be brutally honest with you: I have made many mistakes in my past and I don’t feel I should be given anything for it. I mean, I know who God has for me but it feels like I would be more of a hindrance to him that a helpmate. And I realize that thinking is preventing me from moving towards what’s mine. When God told Abraham he would be a Father of many nations and he was extremely old did Abraham say “no God, there seems to be some kind of error”? No. He believed; he didn’t question God or try to figure out God’s plan he just let go and let God. These days we seem to forget that God is still the God that can move mountains, part seas, heal you just on your faith alone. So why do we limit Him to what we can do? God is so much bigger than us, so let us not put Him in a box or try to figure out what His next move is or how we’re getting to our “promise land”.

Prayer and Fast Day 9- On the Way

I wonder why God stays with us in the midst of all the mess that we do, I mean if you think about how many errors you make in one day; would you stay by your side at the end of the day? But God is merciful, and His grace is sufficient. He is amazing to us and does amazing things for us. I know I am not worthy of the blessings He bestows upon me and I won’t lie and say that I am. I know where I have been and what I have done. But the sooner I realize how far He has brought me, the sooner I can realize its better to stay in Him and not in the world. One of my friends on Facebook used the quote “There are no shortcuts to anywhere worth going”. That is so true when you think

Prayer and Fast Day 8- I Will Remember You....

Today my grandmother passed a year ago. She was the cornerstone and backbone of my family. I never loved someone as much as I loved her. The hardest thing for me was watching her slowly disintegrate. I will always remember that she was fond of light houses. When she used to live in Barbados as a little girl, she used to live in one. The funny thing is that she was a light house for me. She showed me that you could still stand for Jesus and let her light shine. I will always remember and always love her.

Kristen Stewart - Into the Wild

Kristen Stewart appeared in Into the Wild as Tracy Tatro (Minor Role).

Into the Wild is a 2007 film based on the 1996 non-fiction book of the same name by Jon Krakauer about the adventures of Christopher McCandless.

Into the Wild was directed by Sean Penn, who also wrote the screenplay, and stars Emile Hirsch, Jena Malone, Marcia Gay Harden, Vince Vaughn, Kristen Stewart, William Hurt and Catherine Keener.

Into the Wild premiered during the second edition of the Rome Film Feast. The film premiered outside of Fairbanks, Alaska on September 3, 2007, and Into the Wild film was issued in limited release on September 21, before a wide release on October 19.

Box office performance In North America, Into the Wild initially opened in limited release, in four theaters and grossed $212,440, posting a per-theater average of $53,110. For the next several weeks, the film remained in limited release until it expanded to over 600 theaters on October 19, 2007; in its first weekend of wide release, the film grossed just $2.1 million for a per-theater average of $3,249. As of December 25, 2008, the film has grossed $18,354,356 domestically and $37,281,398 internationally. In total, the film has grossed $55,635,754 worldwide.

Prayer and Fast Day 7- Relax

Today after church, we went to see the movie The Proposal. It was great: great shoes, great guy, great girl, and great concept. I enjoyed being with the girls and in the city for something either than work related. Afterwards, we went to my best friend’s boyfriend LES apartment (did I mention I am in love with him, lol) to play video games and hang out. I realized in the midst of the hanging out that I actually felt lonely. I felt like I was alone in the crowd. It’s a funny feeling to try to describe. I know that God is there in the midst of everything, but sometimes we need a little reminding.

Prayer and Fast Day 6- Wake Up Call

I have never been so shaken to my core from a dream that seem so real and it wasn’t a nightmare. The problem was that it was a nightmare for the other person in the dream and I was the monster! I was ruining my ex-boyfriends current girlfriend’s life; and in the dream I was totally oblivious to it! I couldn’t go back to sleep. To someone else, this sounds like nothing but to me it feels like a wake-up call. I need to let go completely. That little remnant, that little remainder of hope that we still carry needs to be killed, destroyed. The funny thing is that I have no one to talk to about this but the Lord. I remember hearing that God would put you in a place where you can’t go to anyone else but Him. It’s then when you get your release, because you went to the One person who can take care of it all.

Prayer and Fast Day 5- It Finally Happened!

My phone keypad stopped working! I had to give it up for an hour to be repaired! I knew it had to happen, I actually feel better without it (maybe that’s because I know it’s only for an hour). I feel that you have to make certain things priorities and certain things optional. I am asking the Lord to reveal to me the Ministry He has called me to and help me discern his voice.

Prayer and Fast Day 4- Keep Me Lord

My phone is starting to act up………I know, don’t say it! I feel that this is a hindrance in my relationship with God. The phone needs to take a serious back seat. Sigh. My friend that would like to be my “boyfriend” and believe me, I use that word very loosely isn’t speaking to me as much. You know what’s so funny; he barely talked to me this whole fast. Its only shows to me who belongs in my life and who doesn’t. I was reading a snippet from this book called Fasting- by Jentezen Franklin in Barnes and Noble; and I can’t wait to buy it! He says when you fast you open yourself up to hear from God! How amazing is that! I think that makes withstanding and seeking Him so worth it!

Listen to my doctor

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wow... I even amaze myself sometimes

I just had the best thought: next time I have sex (which let's face it, probably won't be anytime soon, but whatever) I'm going to say something really crazy to the guy.

For example: "Wow, that was soooo awesome. You are AMA-ZING! You're like the sex Terminator, you know, like a robot that came from the future to teach me what great sex is supposed to be like."

You know why: because even if he told people no one would believe him that I really said it. Think about it. I'm a friggin' genius.

If anyone has some suggestions I'm totally open to that too.

Prayer and Fast Day 3- Argh!

I really think the devil is trying me. I have a co worker, (well two now) who like to talk to me like I am not even human. They sad thing is they act like this when I am trying to help them! I have to show kindness at all times, and let them see the Jesus in me. It’s not easy, believe me it’s not. But it will be so worth it later.

Prayer and Fast Day 2- The Flesh is Weak

I am starting to realize certain things about myself; I have no self control sometimes. I mean, I behave myself…. A lot…..but then there are times when I have to look at myself and say “that’s not you Michelle”. There are areas in my life that I haven’t given completely over to God, and as I enter this fast I am slowly seeing those areas revealed to me. I have been trying to get rid of things that would seem like everyday novelties to others but pose as stumbling blocks for me. I wish it could be easy but I have to realize God’s strength in my weakness.

Fight against the mouse

Wow this makes me laugh :P

Prayer and Fast Day 1- You Know What They Say When You Assume....

Because I am a lady I won’t finish that sentence, lol. But I was very upset to be lectured by someone who assumed I didn’t know anything about the Indian history before we did the Bollywood Bridal Shower for my best friend. We knew what things meant what, and we excluded anything that would conflict with us being children of God. So imagine my surprise when I am lectured and told things I already knew. The thing that got me is that this gentleman and I rarely text and he texts me like he has every right to tell me what I can and can not do. All I could think at the time was “Lord, I really want to say what’s on my mind but…..cover me!” SMH, I don’t get men sometimes. I think they’re more complicated than women.

Time to Think

After the run in with my ex, I started to think about the past relationships that I have been in that I am still attached to. I always remember the bible verse Mark 9:29b “…This kind can come forth by nothing, but prayer and fasting.” I am going into 9 days of prayer and fasting asking and seeking the Lord to remove all attachments that I have formed in the past that a remnant and residue still in me and my life. I need to be able to be completely free and I feel the only way I can do that is to be free from it all. So pray for me and my strength as I start my fast tomorrow and end it next week.

Anime Eyes

This is just taking it too far lols

Surprise!

I am so glad it’s over! I feel like I have been running around in circles today making sure we tie up loose ends, but when I saw her face when we yelled “Surprise” she started to cry and then she got so excited when we showed her the sari she was wearing for the night. After that, I was ready to call it a night. But it was so worth it; she is one of those people that deserve to be shown how much she’s appreciated.

Memoirs from my Kitchen

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elf new studio products & my haul

So i just got my stuff from elf with a few items missing... no matter, i checked out their website again to see what's new and e-mail them about my missing products, and i found that there are new products in their studio line. i haven't check the other pages and i'm not about to, since i wont be ordering in awhile, i don't want to be tempted.

here are their new studio line products:

Waterproof Lengthening & Volumizing Mascara


Achieve thicker, fuller, and longer lashes that are beautiful and natural. The enlarged brush coats your lashes evenly for an enhanced appeal. The unique formula is clump free and quick drying so you can have color that stays on all day with no smudging and no flaking. Waterproof, tear-proof and sweat proof for a look that lasts against all odds.

Bronzers

Create a healthy looking glow all year round! The sheer soft powders provide the perfect hue of color. Blend all 4 colors together to achieve a blend of perfection or choose your favorite color or colors to mix, match and blend.
Warm Bronzer- The warm shimmer that will bring a glow to your face. Ideal for summer or year-round.
Cool Bronzer- The ideal selection of matte colors to achieve a natural looking tan. Ideal for winter or year-round.
Golden Bronzer- An illuminating shimmer that is subtle and radiant. Ideal for summer or year-round.

Complexion Perfection

Create a balanced and radiant complexion that is beautiful and healthy. The lightweight formula evens out the skin tone and absorbs excess oil. The sheer formula brightens, mattes and neutralizes the skin.

Eyebrow Treat & Tame

Create manicured and styled brows that are beautiful and defined. Treat your eyebrows with a hair re-growth, vitamin infused gel formula to help stimulate hair follicules so your once thin and sparse brows become thicker. Tame eyebrows with a fiber enhanced eyebrow mascara formula for fuller and more natural looking brows. The special fiber infused mascara grips onto even your finest brow hair to create a beautiful healthy and enhanced look.

Hollywood Eyelashes Kit

No mess, lash beautification for a Hollywood glamour look. Achieve lashes like the celebrities with this all-in-one kit.
Kit Includes: Lash applicator, lash stand, false lashes and adhesive glue.

Makeup Remover Cleansing Cloths

Gently and easily cleans skin to remove all traces of makeup and dirt, even waterproof mascara. Great for on-the-go travel. Gentle cloths are soft and soothing for even the most sensitive skin. Infused with Aloe Vera Extract for deep hydration and moisture. 20 Pre-moistened cloths included.

Lip Liner & Blending Brush

Create defined and enhanced lips that are blended to perfection! The smooth gliding pencil applies color precisely and accurately with no sharpening needed. The soft taklon bristled brush aids in blending the color evenly and naturally for a beautiful bitten lip look.


Also, i've updated the elf coupon codes, CLICK HERE to see the new discounts you can get.

This is my e.l.f. haul tips & review:

Kristen Stewart - The Cake Eaters

Kristen Stewart appeared in The Cake Eaters as Georgia (Lead Role (Limited Role)). The Cake Eaters is a 2007 American independent drama film about two small town families who must confront old issues with the return of one family's son.

The Cake Eaters film was directed by Mary Stuart Masterson, and stars Kristen Stewart, Aaron Stanford, Bruce Dern, and Jayce Bartok. Kristen Stewart is featured as Georgia, a young girl with Friedreich's Ataxia, a rare disease for which there is currently no cure.

The Cake Eaters has won several awards at various film festivals. At the 2007 Ft. Lauderdale International Film Festival, The Cake Eaters won the People's Choice Award for Best American Indie Film. At the 2008 Ashland Independent Film Festival, The Cake Eaters film received the Audience Award for a Dramatic Feature. At the 2008 Sedona International Film Festival, Mary Stuart Masterson received the Discovery Award. Masterson also received the Best Feature award at the 2008 Stony Brook Film Festival.

Cast

	Kristen Stewart	...	Georgia
	Aaron Stanford	...	Beagle
	Bruce Dern	...	Easy
	Elizabeth Ashley	...	Marg
	Jayce Bartok	...	Guy
	Miriam Shor	...	Stephanie
	Talia Balsam	...	Violet
	Jesse L. Martin	...	Judd
	Melissa Leo	...	Ceci
	Marylouise Burke	...	Babe
	E.J. Carroll	...	Vito
	Tom Cavanagh	...	Lloyd
	Mary E. Freeman	...	Flea Market Shopper
	Andrew George Jr.	...	Young Beagle
	Elizabeth Girardeau	...	Maggie Lynn
	Zoe Hunter	...	Girl on the Bus
	Grant Monohon	...	Bum
	Elisa Pugliese	...	Stacy
	Vincent Rao	...	Flea Market Shopper
	Nicole Signore	...	Flea Market Shopper
	Elizabeth Van Meter	...	Hippy Chick

A beautiful "feel good" movie, It's been a while since I watched a movie and felt good for a while afterwards. Most movies nowadays make you feel romantic, awesome, thrilled, pumped up, etc etc, while you're watching it, inside the movie theatre or on your couch; but as soon as the movie ends, many leave you with a strange feeling of emptiness. "The Cake Eaters" was definitely a different experience for me. I can't say that I've learnt a lesson or a piece of wisdom from the movie, but I can definitely say that it left me with a good feeling after it ended. I definitely recommend it for rental and ownership, especially to watch with a loved one.

Crunch Time

Today is the last lap. We have to make sure that everything comes together for my best friend. I just picked up the sari and her jewelry and it absolutely amazing! She is going to be so excited and happy tomorrow. When I see her face tomorrow, all our hard work will so be worth it. So I saw my ex today and I realize that he hasn’t gotten over me. How do I know? He told me. SMH, you know the lyric to that song “don’t it always seem to go that you don’t know what you got till it’s gone” that seems to be his song for the past year and a half. I don’t understand; if he keeps on holding on to the past he won’t be able to move into the future. And we won’t be able to be friends. I don’t want any emotional attachments anymore, its unnecessary baggage.

Sexy Vampires are Destroying our Nation's Children

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I'm At A Lost

Okay, I am going to open up to you about this one thing that has been eating away at me for awhile. I was told from one of my brother that receives dreams who my spouse is supposed to be. I didn’t think much of it, but it was so weird that he describe this guy down to a T and never met him before. He had some follow up dreams to it, I received confirmation, but it feels like it is a lost cause. I received this word over a year ago and the relationship between me and this gentleman has moved from never speaking to each other to barely speaking to each other. To make things even more awkward, we are walking down the aisle together for my cousins and best friend wedding. I am not saying I want things to happen overnight, I am just not sure that I want something to happen. I don’t like being single at times, and I know that I can’t be single for the rest of my life but it feels like I won’t be good enough for him. He’s an anointed Man of God and I feel that I wouldn’t be what he needs. But that’s not how God see things right? He knows what He’s doing; after all He is a professional at this match making business. He places something in us that the other person would need to continue their walk together in Christ.

Pheromones - Nature's Love Potion #9

Interestingly, the day after I posted about the guy that I didn’t like because of his smell (Sad Fireman) there was an episode of Oprah about pheromones that I thought was interesting. Here's some basic info that I compiled that I found. Maybe I'm not shallow after all! Maybe it WAS the pheromones:

Pheromones are chemicals that are secreted in the sweat (and other bodily fluids) of humans and other mammals, even insects. Pheromones are odourless and barely perceptible. In fact, it is only through our vomeronasal organ (VNO) located in our nasal cavity that we're able to detect pheromones. Although pheromones can’t be seen, heard, smelled or touched, they sub-consciously affect our biological processes, which in turn, stimulate our sexual drives and reproductive behaviours. Scientists have long known that these pheromones have a powerful influence on mating habits.

If you've ever observed the way a male animal is irresistibly attracted to a female in heat(and we’ve all seen two dogs doing in on the side of the road!) you already understand the sexual power of pheromones. They influence how often we have sex, and with whom. This doesn’t mean we act like love-crazed tom-cats ready to pounce on any member of the opposite sex that happens to be nearby. The effects of pheromones on humans are more subtle than that, but still powerful.

Androstenone is a steroid found in both male and female sweat and urine and is predominantly known as a male pheromone because it creates a dominant and intimidating aura. It can produce alpha-male type aggressiveness which is often associated with sex and good mate choice, so this pheromone can create a sexual vibe and increase sexual tension. While normally it is reported to have an unpleasant, sweaty, urine-like or woody smell, when a woman is ovulating (therefore wanting healthy specimen to reproduce with) it takes on a pleasant or floral smell. At this time it also increases the luteinizing hormone (LH) in women, thereby causing a woman to have a heightened sexual responsiveness to a man.

Copulins are an exclusively female group of pheromones that attract men. They are secreted into the vagina at the optimum ratios during ovulation with the aim of encouraging men to desire to copulate. They have also been proven to bring about a testosterone surge (up to 150%) in men, causing a man to have a heightened sexual responsiveness to a woman.This increase in testosterone may cause feelings of arousal in men if a woman is present. It is said that once a man smells copulins on a woman she is deemed to be more attractive.

The difference between being “in love” and just loving someone has to do with chemistry. As I learned on Oprah, a good way to test if there’s chemistry between you and your man is to take a good whiff of him when he’s clean but cologne-free … if the smell turns you on then there’s good chemistry. If not… sorry! Welcome to splitsville... population, you.

Also… and this part is interesting… women are attracted more to men with a different MHC (major histcombatibility complex) than them. It’s part of the immune system that differentiates whether something in your body is your own (self) or from someone or something else (non-self.) This encourages survival of the species through different combinations of genes (and you know, encourages you NOT to get with your cousins.) However, women on the pill tended to choose a guy with a similar MHC because of the fact that they aren’t ovulating. This can cause higher levels of infidelity and fertility issues. So yeah... this is NOT GOOD. You can be off the pill and get pregnant by someone different than you, or be on the pill and not get pregnant and be attracted to someone a little too close to home. Ew.

I know what you’re thinking… How do I use pheromones to get me laid? Well, this is where synthesized pheromones can give you an advantage that Mother Nature never did. Even if you're one of the fortunate people who secretes abundant quantities of natural pheromones, the pheromones you do produce are usually washed away when you shower or bathe. Products such as Passion Parties “Pure Instinct" or endless others you can purchase on the internet contain pheromones, that when applied to the skin are supposed to bring out one’s natural sexual scent. Do they really work? That’s yet to be proven. But, it can’t hurt!

No Words....

I am in so much pain right now! My tooth feels like it is slowly being ripped from my mouth. The sad thing is I have to wait and set up an appointment to get a root canal. I don’t want a root canal, I want it pulled! Any who, I am so exhausted; I am so ready to getaway ASAP! I want time for me to just relax and have time to talk to the Lord. It seems like I have no time at all. Last night we had a thunderstorm, the lightning woke up everyone! There was no way to deny you heard that. There’s a joke that God is angry when you hear lightning like that, and if that is the case than God is extremely angry with New York, lol. It’s probably because of all the bickering in Albany and this push to pass gay marriage in New York. SMH, I will not get into that today. Be blessed.

Back to Work

I am back at work and anxious to be at home….or somewhere else. Lol I know that is bad to say. I thank God for the fact that I am working, I thank God that He bestowed favor on me and allowed me to keep my job. We had our final meeting for my girlfriend’s bridal shower. I am so looking forward to it! She is going to be so excited! That’s what makes all this work worth while, she is a sweet and genuine person and deserved to be shown how special she is to us. It’s the least we can do; she has always put herself out there for us.

Bring On the Sari's

Today is the first day that I intentionally took off this whole year! And guess what I did? I went shopping for the Sari’s for my best friend’s bridal shower. I love the fabrics and had a total field day learning how to wrap, pleat and tie it. I need to actually have a day where I can just stay in bed and do absolutely nothing. God willing that day will come soon. I wonder what my life will be like a year from now, what would have changed, stayed the same, etc. I went by my old job today and was so surprised at how everyone looked the same way, but I felt different and out of place. That is funny since I was so comfortable there before and didn’t want to leave. It’s funny what happens when you get out of your comfort zone.

Why do these things happen to me?

This guy who went to my high school texted me the other night at around 1:00am or so saying: "Hey what's up?"

Oh yeah, I should mention that I haven't seen or spoken to him in probably a year.

I write back: "Just in bed trying to sleep."

He's like: "Oh well we should hang out soon."

To which I reply: "Yeah ok but I really wanna get some sleep cus I'm working tomorrow."

So he says: "Ok. Text me in the morning. Send me a pic."

Ummm you can't just creep Facebook like a normal person?

Taken aback I write: "Why the hell would I send you a pic?"

Him: "Well I haven't seen you in a while."

Me: "We can hang out but you have to stop being a creeper."

Him: "Ok call me tomorrow! :) "

Oh yeah, one more thing. He gave my sister's friend chlamydia a few months ago. Just saying.

Perfecting Holiness- Day 7

“I’m pregnant with Purpose & Destiny”. Well that was the topic this morning spoken by our Youth Vice President Minister Dr. Karen DeLisle. She is such a humble, on fire, Woman of God. You can’t help but love her. God is going to have such a reward for her in heaven. The message this morning was a good one. She said that my cousin (the preacher in the making) and my other friend were pregnant with purpose & destiny. It’s so easy to see God moving in their lives. They can’t deny it. Sometimes I wonder if I have anything to do in God’s kingdom. I don’t want to be a prophetess, a preacher or minister, but I would like to know what job God has called me to. But I won’t fret or give place to the devil. I will wait for God to reveal it to me.

Brooklin Spring Fair

First Weekend in June - June 4^th - 7^th, 2009
Come Celebrate our 98^th Year!

http://www.brooklinspringfair.com/

Contact Them
Brooklin Spring Fair P.O. Box 615 Brooklin, ON L1M 1B5
Telephone 905-655-7093 Fax 905-655-7094
secretary@brooklinspringfair.com

It's the annual Brooklin Spring Fair. I herd this through my Friend Kirsty who was asked by Grace to go with her to the fair. Grace herd this fair from her other friends who went the past few years. Amazing how useful the usage of "word of mouth" can be.

Though the information given through the many people was not enough to get us there, so me and Grace looked up the website for the fair (Thank god there was one, most events have a website now but there are still those omish events without sites. Grace and i thought this might be a farmer's fair kind of thing we weren't sure if they'd have a website for it...).

Once Grace found the website we studied the schedule for the events, while Kirsty looked up the bus route to the Brooklin Spring Fair. we were cordinating through a 3-way MSN conversation.

Grace was really excited by the Demolition Derby. It'd be the first time for all of us to see something like that. To tell you the truth, i didn't even know what it'd be, so Grace looked it up on Google, and these are the pictures we saw:

They looked awesome. Also there will be BMX shows too!

We went on Saturday, so here is the schedule they planned out for that day:

~ Saturday JUNE 6, 2009 ~
9:00  AM  Double Rabbit Show
10:00 AM  Farrier Competition
10:00 AM  Heavy & Light Horse Line Classes
10:30 AM Parade
11:00 AM Midway Opens
11:00 AM Dunk Tank
12:00 PM  Bavarian Tent Opens
1:00 PM BMX Show *NEW!
1:00 PM  Light & Heavy Horse Hitch
1:00 PM  Pet Show - Registration 12:30PM
1:30 PM  Speaking of Wildlife
2:00 PM  Junior Dairy & 4-H Dairy Show
3:00 PM BMX Show *NEW!
5:00 PM  Winch Jam - GAME of W.A.K.E. *NEW!
6:00 PM BMX Show *NEW!
8:00 PM Demolition Derby

There are a lot of contests too, like pie eating, singing, and many more. We only got that around 6ish so we missed out on a lot. We couldn't go any early because Kirsty had to be in Toronto for something.

We originally planned on busing there but we couldn't meet up so Grace's mom drove all of us there.

That's a picture i took while Grace and I thought we were waiting for kirsty :P

Here are some pics we took once we got there:
We wanted to go on the Farris Wheel so bad because it was such a fair thing to do. We wanted to go on it at night so it'll light up, but sadly some old dude got paralyzed on it, thus it was shut down for the whole night. We went on other rides instead, and took tons of random pictures.





Actually I'll just post the album, Click HERE to see more pictures. The album is from my Facebook, so please do NOT add me. It is personal. i've made a public Facebook account. for you guys to add me. CLICK HERE for the public Facebook account.