Alive or Dead?

Well it's obvious I completely forgot about updating my blog unless something super interesting comes up. I'm the type of person that like writing or anything, so I prefer to “vlog”. The problem with that is, I tend to look shit most of the days in my dorm so I prefer not to scare you guys with a video of me looking like a cave woman in her natural habitat in which she called her dorm room.

haha the mess in the back is actually my roommate, Marikas. (L)

Anyways, my point is, I can no long spend so much time on the times I love. I can't make regular monthly videos, I can’t update my blog, and I can’t do my dailybooth.

I can’t have an online life!

But I’m sure you guys don’t want to hear me complain all day, so here is brief news about what has happened to me since… well since that last post about me being a Youtube partner~!

Okkayyyy lets list em’

• got a boyfriend
• passed high school
• accepted to Waterloo University
• turned 18
• got a job
  
• got circle lenses
• moved into a double dorm room with a stranger (yes you, marika~!)
  
• made a birthday video for Brendan (boyfriend)
• MET SHIMMYCOCOPUFFSSSS
  
• starting to fail Uni
• got into serious talks with boyfriend (by serious talks i mean arguments that most long distance relationships have)
• got to know my floor mates
  
• watched harry potter (YES EPIC)
• never slept before 3
• always late for chem lab
• never attended bio130 lec since midterm!
• lost the job
  

do you see the downward trend here? i am still alive, but slowly dying in uni..... anyways here are some photos i was able to fish up from the database known as my laptop hard drive. (i said fish up because i'm in zoology lec listening about fish... ok not listening because i'm typing this but yea..)

my blue geo angel circle lenses, they're darker than i thought...

The lovely Brendan Woo creeping on my. silly boy.

me volunteering for the open house of waterloo :) yay don't i look so happy in the freaking cold holding that sign?

my work involved putting car parts on to the wielding machines.... i worked for cami automotive! good pay too. sadly i couldn't work sufficient hours thus they fired me. it's not my fault i'm a full time students with lots of exams and labs!

wtf, my prof just played a video of a shark jumping out of the water..........

anyways. this post has been sufficiently long enough and i spent well over an hour to write this because stupid blogger kept on crashin' on me! gahhh :(.

hope to see more updates from me soon guys! including some tips and even examples of assignments labs and other resources to survive science courses in waterloo. Even if you don't go to this university it'll still help i guess hehe.

looooove, lily.

STRESS

WOW today, I just had a math unit test and a chemistry unit test.
It's raining outside and it feels gloomy and dark inside.
My eyes feels hot and watery.
Why you might ask?
Stress. That's why.
Stress because of my lack of self-control.
Stress because of my constant procrastination.

I might of shed a single drop of tear, for the failure of my chemistry test, but I was also relieved that it was over. Prior to today, I pulled an all nighter to study for math. The outcome was good, but it was at the expense of my chemistry mark. If I ever want to be a pharmacist, I need to get my chemistry mark up. I have 70s in both math and chemistry, things are looking bad.
I know what I must do. Block youtube, block facebook, block blogspot, and all the other websites I visit too often. Yes, it’s the only way. I can’t keep up with all my school work if I spend all my time online; wasting my time online.

I’m not here to say that’ll I’ll be gone forever, because that extremely hard for me to do. I plan on easing my way out, slowly; bit by bit. I’ve already taken action last week, but it seems like it wasn’t enough. I’ve downloaded an add-on for my firefox, which will allow me to set a time limit or when to block certain website. It’s currently set to block all my favourite websites from 4-6pm, then from 8-12pm from Monday to Thursday. That will give me enough time to enjoy myself after school, the a break from 6-8pm for me to rest from my homework. Hopefully this will work out fine.

Like I mention before, this blocking thing doesn’t seem to work yet, due to the fact that I thought I can rest during the weekend so I didn’t block anything at that time. Though it was a generous thought, I failed to consider my 2 unit tests on Monday and let my procrastination get the best of me. It seems I need a bit of adjusting to my blocking.
I will think of something later, because this week, is the last week of school before the winter break!

I think I will end it here. I don’t want to go into the sad events that are to come. Ending on a happy note is nicer for both you and I. I’ll continue this some other time though, when I want to vent publicly on my blog that no one reads :)

A picture taken on the night of my semi formal dance. I caked the makeup on :)

Why Am I Not Surprised

I was supposed to meet “Richard” after work for the suit fitting but he cancelled. To tell you the truth, it seems since he’s been in a relationship that he has been more open with me. I am so confused. I never tried to pursue him at all. And there lies the problem. He didn’t think I was interested because he is so used to women going after him. I did the opposite; I was the cool friend on the side that would occasionally talk and joke with him. I was always told that “He that findeth a wife…” I will always stick to that. I like it, I like that if a gentleman is interested, he has to make the move. I am convinced I belong in another time period. I love the old fashion standards to things. These days everyone thinks without thinking.