Last Minutes....

Today I went to get my hair done and spent the remainder of the day with the groom to take care of the last minute things before the big day tomorrow. I am so happy that my cousin has found his help mate and vice versa. I couldn’t think of a better person for him. She’s a humble, sweet, Woman of God who loves the Lord and puts others before her. I pray tomorrow is everything she wants and more!

'cause baby I'm up in my Beegees like a windy interview

Don't ask questions... just watch it:



Best quote ever: "You know you love my cock... Come on give me water dessert."

25 Hottest Hockey Players Video

Just something I came across... Some are the same ones I had on my list, some are totally different. The whole thing is sorta skewed towards the eastern teams, especially the Penguins... but they have Pyatt at least, so all is right in the world. Enjoy:

It's About That Time!

Today is the rehearsal for my cousin (the groom) and best and friend (the bride) wedding. I am so happy for them! In a couple of days they will taking the next steps on a road together! I am ready to eat, eat and eat some more at the BBQ they will be having later! I’m so excited!

What Can I Say?

As each day passes and I deal with the drama and emotions of learning something new about the happy couple; I can’t help but wonder; what will it feel like? I was supposed to meet with “Richard” of the new couple to finalize the shirts and I got so nervous that my stomach was doing serious flips. I don’t know. I feel weird to think about him. He’s taken now and I wouldn’t want anyone thinking of my boyfriend. Don’t you agree? The rehearsal dinner is tomorrow and it’s going to take a lot of work for me to look forward to it, I just want it to come and go. So sorry to say, I can’t wait until the ceremony and reception is over. SMH. I dislike being negative. Keep the prayer there.

Kristen Stewart - What Just Happened

Kristen Stewart appeared in What Just Happened as Zoe (Supporting role). What Just Happened is a satirical comedy-drama directed by Barry Levinson starring Robert De Niro.

What Just Happened is an independent film, produced by 2929 Productions, Art Linson Productions and Tribeca Productions, and was released on October 17, 2008.

I saw what just happened there.,

Author: shnizzedy from United States

What Just Happened film is certainly enjoyable, and has several laugh-out-loud moments. However, like the film within the film, What Just Happened? feels too long. As a filmmaker myself, I really enjoyed What Just Happened film, but I am afraid that much of the appeal will be missing in a general audience. A producer trying to change Bruce Willis' mind is pretty funny, but how funny is it to a non-producer or a non-Bruce-Willis? The performances, are, of course, outstanding. The entire cast is composed of nearly uncriticizable actors who are superb in any role they attempt. If you have an interest in how films come to be, this is a fun little flick. If you don't care about the behind-the-scenes, you may want to sit this one out.

Why Am I Not Surprised

I was supposed to meet “Richard” after work for the suit fitting but he cancelled. To tell you the truth, it seems since he’s been in a relationship that he has been more open with me. I am so confused. I never tried to pursue him at all. And there lies the problem. He didn’t think I was interested because he is so used to women going after him. I did the opposite; I was the cool friend on the side that would occasionally talk and joke with him. I was always told that “He that findeth a wife…” I will always stick to that. I like it, I like that if a gentleman is interested, he has to make the move. I am convinced I belong in another time period. I love the old fashion standards to things. These days everyone thinks without thinking.

No More!

I am sick and tired of hearing about them! I would be happy for them if it was God’s will but the more I hear about it the more I am nervous for them. I pray that they take the next steps as led by God and not by their emotions.

Opportunity Knocks

This morning I woke up to the email that an old friend of mine wants to finally give us a chance. Lol. It seems that this would be by chance right? No. I remember talking to my cousin before about decoys. They pop up when the right one is right around the corner. I remember that my spiritual mother told me the story about her and her husband. God revealed who he was one night at a all night Youth prayer meeting. It took them 9 years to get together! Do you know why? One word: Decoys. They let people talk in their heads and one got into a relationship with the wrong one and the other followed. It took time to fix and they were finally obedient to God. But it took 9 years to reach their promise. It reminds me of the story of the Children of Israel in the wilderness. What was supposed to be a temporary trip to the promise land turned into 40 years! How many of us are taking the scenic route to our promise? God wants to show us the easy way but all our complaining has made it longer and longer to get there.

Let Me Off!

Life is beginning to feel like a cheesy Soap Opera. I just found out that none of his friends support the relationship! I don’t know. Normally “Richard” has his head on straight all the time, but this time I think he lost it. I realized that he is probably just so tired of waiting; all his friends are about to get married and he’s the only one that is single. It different for different people I guess.

Diablo 3

OHH WOW! i can't wait for Diablo 3 to come out. the games looks totally awesome!


FAQ answered by Blizzard

The Calm Before the Storm

So I know I haven’t discussed the relationship aspect of my life because it just seems way too complicated. I mean, some things take time to explain; especially this. But it seems like everyday I will hear and learn something new about the new couple: Let’s just call them “Maddy and Richard”. I pray that God will strengthen me in this situation, it feels like a test of my faith and I know that whatever God promises me will be mine. I also pray for them. That if this is of God, they follow God and lift Him up in this relationship.

I Never Thought It Would Feel Like This

I have no words. I literally felt the revelation rock my soul. Have you ever felt like that before? You know what is yours and someone else has taken it? I just found out the person that God has for me is on a relationship with another person. I can only pray his strength and hers, that they don’t make promises to each other that they can’t keep. I pray that they are mindful of each others hearts. It hurts, yes. But………I can’t explain it……I don’t doubt the word I received, I believe it with every fiber or my being. But some people have to test the waters, make sure……maybe he’s one of them. I pray that there are no backlashes or consequences…..

Open My Eyes Lord, I Want to See Jesus..

There was a song in Sunday School we used to sing. It goes like this: “Open our eyes Lord, we want to see Jesus. To reach out and touch Him; and tell Him we love Him. Open our ears Lord, and teach us to listen. Open our eyes Lord, we want to see Jesus”. That song popped into my head as I read Our Daily Bread today and it talked about sin making us deaf to God. The text is taken from Isaiah 42: 23-25. The Message version is amazing; it starts from vs 18-25. It reads: “Pay attention! Are you deaf? Open your eyes! Are you blind? You're my servant, and you're not looking! You're my messenger, and you're not listening! The very people I depended upon, servants of God, blind as a bat—willfully blind! You've seen a lot, but looked at nothing. You've heard everything, but listened to nothing. God intended, out of the goodness of his heart, to be lavish in his revelation. But this is a people battered and cowed, shut up in attics and closets,
Victims licking their wounds, feeling ignored, abandoned. But is anyone out there listening? Is anyone paying attention to what's coming? Who do you think turned Jacob over to the thugs, let loose the robbers on Israel? Wasn't it God himself, this God against whom we've sinned- not doing what he commanded, not listening to what he said? Isn't it God's anger that's behind all this, God's punishing power? Their whole world collapsed but they still didn't get it; their life is in ruins but they don't take it to heart.” Amazing! I never looked at it from that angle. That God was answering but I wasn’t hearing. It makes me think, I mean really think. I asked God before if I sin unintentionally, forgive me but make me mindful of my ways. Maybe we’re doing something that is stopping God’s word from getting to us. We’ve been seeking God for an answer or asking for a change and He’s been answering us all along but maybe our choice in music, our “happy hour habits”, our relationships, etc. has been making us deaf to the voice of the Lord. I pray if that is the case, the Lord will open our eyes and bring it to our attention. It would be sad that God is talking to us, warning us even but our sin is preventing us from hearing. Be blessed.

Wearing My Heart on My Sleeve

I am all for the old fashion way of doing things but I wonder if wearing our heart on our sleeves is the best idea. I realized that while I was single I was in emotional relationships. Even though we weren’t together my mind frame didn’t really echo this. Why? Because mentally I was acting like we were together and if you look at it from that stand point I wasn’t really single, was I? Maybe it’s not like that for everyone; it just seems like that with me. I think I’m just rambling again…………….never mind me.

Kristen Stewart - Jumper

Kristen Stewart appeared in Jumper as Sophie (Cameo).Jumper is a 2008 American science fiction film from 20th Century Fox and Regency Enterprises.

Jumper is loosely based on the 1992 science fiction novel of the same name by Steven Gould. Jumper film is directed by Doug Liman, director of The Bourne Identity and Mr. & Mrs. Smith, and stars Hayden Christensen, Samuel L. Jackson, Rachel Bilson, Jamie Bell, Max Thieriot, AnnaSophia Robb, and Diane Lane.

Jumper film follows a person capable of teleporting to any location as he is chased by a secret group intent on killing him.

Good Girls Finish 235, 209

I don’t really believe it but sometimes it feels like it. I do what I’m supposed to, behave the way I should, and see the people around me doing their own thing get ahead. It reminds me of the Psalm when David saw the wicked prospering; but he knew that God would take care of His people. I remind myself that as long as I follow God, He will take care of me. Sometimes we need a little reminder of who He is and what He can do in our lives.

What Doesn't Kill You...

I doubt it but maybe it's true. It can’t kill me physically but it can kill me emotionally. I am trying to find the right words to say that would make it feel less than it is, but even the little things that are done hurt me. I asked God to remove whatever that I feel that isn’t from Him; but yet the feelings remain. Now I have to deal with it and watch it unfold in front of me. I feel like Anne Elliot in Persuasion when she watches Captain Wentworth with Louisa Musgrove interact with each other and don’t acknowledge her….sigh… I am sure this will pass, and I will look back and laugh at this.

A Mini- Vacay

I tried to sleep until I could sleep no more. It didn’t work though. I realized today that I am so weak and nothing without the Lord. I need Him constantly guiding, leading, and breathing in me. I just want time with just the Lord and I so we can talk about everything. I am going to take some time off from work; it’s time to be on my knees.

I'm R-Patz... but not as pretty.

I have two zits right now, that are smack dab in the middle of my chest.

It looks like I got bitten by a vampire.

Except shittier.

I'm thinking of buying a Costco-sized tube of body glitter and trying to "pass" until it goes away.

Win?

A Little More

I feel like sometimes my co-worker is trying my nerves. My supervisor is on vacation and I won’t lie and say I don’t miss him. I want him back asap! I am convinced I might loss my mine if he doesn’t come back. Yesterday, we went to visit another church in Brooklyn to support one of our ministers that spoke at a Youth Convention. I enjoyed the dancing. There was this one group that danced to “Waging War" by CeCe Winans. I loved it, I thought about it on my way home. It makes me enjoy dancing and ministering through dance. I fell bless that I can touch others without using words.

Behind the Building

I just finished reading “Our Daily Bread” for today and I have to say I am moved. The topic is about doing work behind the scenes. I am one of those people that feel that God has called me for the background things and to be honest I love it. I love the fact that I am in the background making sure things go smoothly because without the background work how will anything get done?......Any who….Yesterday I went bowling with my co-workers for the Junior Achievement. I had so much fun! I haven’t gone bowling in a while. I would have loved to have gone with my church family because it would have been tons of fun! I made sure that I showed Christ in me at all times.

It's Not That Serious

I’m not going to get into the whole breakdown of why a Christian child should not be reading the Harry Potter series. But I will say when I heard that people camped out for the movie premiere I had to ask: seriously? I mean, they are so passionate about something that doesn’t pour into their spirits anything positive. I wish we Christians displayed that passion daily and imagine how many people we could lead to Christ. Because Harry Potter can’t save you; no magic can get you into heaven. Jesus said that He is the way, the truth and the light. I see no mention of anything or anyone else as the way to heaven.

Everything's Changing...

I have to say that Keane song has been stuck in my head since the first time I heard it those years back. I have to agree to an extent; everything is changing. My cousin and best friend are about to get married, my sister will be married next year along with my best friends; and in the midst of it all it feels like I’m staying the same. Even my cousin who had trouble with her relationship is getting some leeway. I am not saying that a relationship will change things; it is just the next obvious step in my ministry. I am at this point that I am at peace with being single. I actually feel attached to no one but the Lord; it took me over a year and a half to get here. I am finally in my spring season. I originally called my season of struggle and getting to where God needed me to be as my Winter Season. That’s when you need to be stripped down and things must die and rest so that you can prepare to give birth to new life and colors in the next one. It’s amazing how God speaks to you. I didn’t realize I was in that season until I was talking to my IT tech and he reset my password to winter. I laughed when I realized what it meant and what it meant to me. I had to update my information last week Friday and guessed what it was changed to? Spring. I actually feel the difference; the change of depending completely on God for a companionship and for a pouring into my spirit as well as a purging. Maybe someone is still in winter; maybe you didn’t even realize it yet. But I want to tell you that in this season God wants to warm you, purify you, and have you depend totally on Him so that when spring comes you will continue to. He is with you in the rough patches and definitely leading you through the good ones. Be blessed.

Quote of the Weekend

"WOW! That's one huge pill....... oh, it's a tampon."
- Cece

God You Are Good!

There’s a song that a psalmist I know named Minister Courtney Bradley sings that says “Who am I, that You are mindful of me?” I have to ask that question time after time. God is so amazing; that it often humbles me when I think about what He is capable of doing. He is so much more that we can imagine. I always think about how God ways are not our ways; and His thoughts our thoughts. We will never be able to comprehend such an amazing mind. He is so awesome in so many ways. I admit there are times when I am not so confident but that’s when we need to remind ourselves who we serve. That changes everything.

Kristen Stewart -Cutlass

Kristen Stewart appeared in Cutlass as Young Robin Minor role (short film). Cutlass is short drama film which was filmed in 2007, written and directed by Kate Hudson.

Cutlass story is about... Little Lacy, a big music fan, discovers a great but expensive guitar in a music shop. She's very excited by the guitar, and asks her mother to buy it. However, her mom says "definitely no", but after that she reminiscences about the time she got an Olds Cutlass as her first car when she was younger. Her father used to say: "Whatever makes you happy, makes me happy". Maybe... in the end... she'll change her mind about Lacy's wish.

What's Mine Is Mine.

Now, I am not the type of person to become possessive about anything. I figure if its mine than that’s that. I have nothing to worry about. I don’t like petty things and nonsense; which is why I get along with older women and not young women my age. If God has promised me something and said His word would not come back to Him void; why would I have to question if He was sure? I am starting to get to a point in my walk with God where I laugh at the Devil. God is all- seeing, all-knowing, and in charge of EVERYTHING. If I follow Him why would He not give me the desires of my heart? Lol, God is good always and that’s why I love Him.

Baby...

Ahahahaha! It's cute.

It Was A Blessing!

Today was the last day of our Empowered for Excellence Women’s Conference at Mt. Olive Pentecostal Church of Faith. It was an absolute experience! God is just so amazing and awesome! It was exactly what a lot of women needed. I am so exhausted from running around all day helping out and tying up loose ends. I realized I like to serve others, it feels like if I can bless them that way I will be blessed. I am tired; I have church and a birthday cookout to go to tomorrow. Be Blessed.

At least he's not sleeping with kids this time!

As if everyone didn't already know that R. Kelly was a sex-crazed weirdo, here are a few things you should know he wants, based on tracks off his new CD Mix Tape:

I've highlighted a few of the... um... highlights.

1. To make the p-u-s-s-y cry (“P.U.S.S.Y. Cry”)

2. To give you a backrub, followed by a trip to the hot tub (“Birthday Sex”)

3. For people not to disrespect his shorty, since he likes her sex (“Disrespect My Shorty”)

4. To hit that big old [ass], even though his girl similarly has a big old [ass] (“Disrespect My Shorty”)

5. To have you scream “It hurts, it hurts!” then have you concede that his lovemaking quenches your thirst, your thirst (“Birthday Sex”)

6. To get him some of that birthday sex (“Birthday Sex”)

7. To turn this club into a bedroom (“Club 2 A Bedroom”)

8. For you not to trip; he owns the club, so you don’t gotta worry ’bout security (“Club 2 A Bedroom”)

9. To get some gratuity, and he don’t mean cash, girl (“Tip The Waiter”)

10. To make it rain like a ticker-tape parade (“Tip The Waiter”)

11. For you not to knock his dick and a half (“Every Girl”)

12. To touch booty like he’s playing it (“Every Girl”)

13. For all y’all to have his baby (“Every Girl”)

14. To have them bitches that are hating on you rubbing on you (“Every Girl”)

15. To eat the coochie of all the girls wearing Gucci (“Every Girl”)

16. For you to listen to his mix-tape, cause it’s Kells, bitches (“Every Girl”)

17. For haters to get fucked with a sandpaper dick (“Best I Ever Had”)

18. To make you say silly shit with his silly dick (“Turning Me On”)

19. To take your sexy ass home and show you how he licks it (“Turning Me On”)

20. To get up in a whole lot of ass (“Turning Me On”)

21. To protect you from a lack of sex (“Supa Dupa Man”)

22. To hit you with super-love so pleasing it’s better than any TV show, better even than HBO, so good he’ll get thumbs-up when he goes low (“Supa Dupa Man”)

23. For you to get on his lap and go-go, since the rearview mirror is saying no po-po (“Makin’ Me Wanna”)

24. To fuck every girl he sees, from the hood to the fucking industry, even the Statue of Liberty (“Every Girl”)

Jeremiah 29:11

“I know what I'm doing. I have it all planned out—plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for.” Jeremiah 29:11 (The Message)

I love this verse. It has been my key verse all last year; and I needed to hear that last year. But it has been popping back up this year as well. There are times when things happen that I can’t understand. I literally feel like someone has taken something from me sometimes. But then I remember this verse. I remember that God has plans for me; and they’re good. He plans to give me a good future. What more can I ask for? I mean, I have to admit I get upset when things don’t turn out the way I want them to; but then I remember who’s in charge and I realize I have nothing to worry about.

Breakforth to Bringforth!

Tonight was the first night in the Women’s Conference. The theme is “Break forth to Bring Forth!” The text is taken from Isaiah 54:1-3. The speaker was amazing! She made me excited and even more on fire for Christ! I love that this can happen; that we can come together and have a word for the Lord poured into our (The Women) souls. It’s an amazing feeling. Day two is tomorrow, I am very excited! I am expecting a breakthrough.

Starting Over

I feel like I need to break free; to leave behind the things that I have no use for but hold on to anyway. Sigh. Starting over is normally the hardest thing to do. You are leaving behind things that you formed a connection with and starting fresh with no attachments. I am getting there…….I was listening to a Newsboys old song that says that we don’t serve a God we created, and that the God we serve is exactly who we want our God to be. Love it!

In Times Like These....

You know we all reach a point when we wonder “Why does God continue to send down His mercy on us?” I mean look at the society we live in. We make Sodom and Gomorrah look like the Brady Brunch. SMH, I can’t help but just ask God to continue to show His mercy on us; they are many people in this nation willing to stand up and be counted for Him. And because of those people, we still have America.

my sister loves this one

When I did my taxes this year instead of just doing it on the computer I needed to get a company to do it because of the Passion Parties home business. I was in Sears with my mom and decided to check out the prices at the H&R Block inside it.

The Asian tax man informed us that we'd need to speak to the man who deals with the business taxes and that he wasn't there that day. He told us the name and said to call the next day.

I asked if we could get a card with his name on it, just as my mom was asking "So just call tomorrow and ask for Chowse?"

I looked at the business card. It said Charles.

Not her fault... that's how the guy pronounced it... I'm just glad I didn't say it. Way to be mama! HAHAHA

Last Train to Awesometown

"Dude... this party has 5 different kinds of nachos!"

This one's a must-watch. Do it.

Fun Fact of the Day

Caesar salad was invented in Tijuana, Mexico.
I know... who knew?
Tacos, burritos and Caesar salad... these people are geniuses!

Old Habits Die Hard

I need to remind myself that a lot lately. There are many people in my life that are not saved and are accustomed to doing things a certain way. My problem is that I have let them for so long unaware that now I have to catch myself and point it out for them. The reality is that it’s going to take a while for them to start to slowly curb themselves but I feel it will be worth it because I will be able to grow spiritually.

I Feel It

Today’s service was amazing! The worship was an amazing experience. There was no way you could have been there and not feel God in that place. I love days like that! I wish everyday can be a worship experience where I just lift my hands, praise the Lord and feel Him move. But since I have this weird thing called a job, my worship experience can’t be that hardcore 24/7. Sigh. I have to speak in our evening Youth service about Evangelism. I am not too nervous, I spoke on Friday for our Youth Service as well and I felt very encouraged.

My Declaration of Dependence!

Today is Independence Day! I look at the things that I was dependent on and I thank God for the Independence from them. I am dependent only on God! With Him all things are possible. I thank Him for being who He is and doing an amazing work in my life. Its funny how God speaks to us, how He reminds us of His power and mercy. The things that used to take precedence before Him are now in the background or gone. It’s not easy, I am the first to admit it; but to be able to be at a place where nothing can interfere and you can freely commune with the Father is a feeling that I can’t explain or find words to express.

no makeup on 2NE1

WAHO!!

Ok i honestly knew CL had a lot of make up on in all the photos and videos, but this is beyond what i thought! She completely looks like a different person! I can't believe it.

In my opinion, Park Boom and Minzy don't look that different, but Dara and CL....

here's what the blogger from allkpop had to say:

I know YG Entertainment has emphasized, more than once, that 2NE1 isn't a group focused on looks, but..... seriously? My heart skipped a beat when I came across these pictures of 2NE1 members without makeup on.

Sandara doesn't look too different. Park Bom doesn't look too bad either - She just looks like she came back from jogging with her ahjumma friends. Regardless of how tired she looks, she still carries a pretty face. But CL and Minzy good lawd...

Judging from their straight look and same background, it looks like they posed for these pictures. Why in the world would their company let anyone photograph them like this? And really, I know we all love celebrity secrets, but this is a bit too much for me. Secrets like these should stay in the bathroom and only come out when fully pampered!

EDIT!
i found this online:

YG Entertainment to take strong actions against photos of 2NE1 leaked

YG Entertainment said on the 3rd that they will take strong against the leakage of the several photos of 2NE1 members posing with no makeup on.

A YG representative said, “We are currently investigating into the source of the leakage. The photos leaked out are the stillcut when our staff are deciding on the style and cordi for the girls.”

“We are now investigating into how they were leaked out. This seems like some bad intentions with the recent release of the girls’ new song ‘I Don’t Care’. Our company will make a strong stand that we will be taking actions against whoever leaked them.”

The photos leaked out have shown the members with no makeup at all. Many fans have also voiced their unhappiness with such photos circulating online. Meanwhile the girls’ new song ‘I Don’t Care’ has already gone up to the #1 spot on various music charts

Download their mini album, including hits such as Fire, Lollipop ft Big bang, and I don't care.

Kristen Stewart - In the Land of Women

Kristen Stewart appeared in Cutlass as Young Robin Minor role (short film). Cutlass is short drama film which was filmed in 2007, written and directed by Kate Hudson.

Cast
* Virginia Madsen --- Robin
* Dakota Fanning --- Lacy
* Kristen Stewart --- Young Robin
* Kurt Russell --- Dad
* Sarah Roemer --- Eve
* Brian Hooks --- Leroy the Mechanic
* Chevy Chase --- Stan
* Ethan Suplee --- Bruce
* Steve Jones --- Jonesy
* Dax Shepard --- Background Extra #1
* Michael Rosenbaum --- Background Extra #2

Cutlass sotry is about... Little Lacy, a big music fan, discovers a great but expensive guitar in a music shop. She's very excited by the guitar, and asks her mother to buy it. However, her mom says "definitely no", but after that she reminiscences about the time she got an Olds Cutlass as her 1st car when she was younger. Her father used to say: "Whatever makes you happy, makes me happy". Maybe... in the end... she'll change her mind about Lacy's wish.

In A Few Hours...

I have will have a half day at work. I am so anxious to get to bed and sleep. I found out that I have to deliver 2 sermons: 1 on Friday and 1 on Sunday. They’ll be both on Evangelism. Since I went to Bible School and graduated from that class, they felt I could speak about it. I don’t feel pressured, I just always feel unworthy to be a mouthpiece for the Lord, but to God be the glory. I hope that the Youth learn something that they will be able to take with them.

Changes....

This time next month my best friend will be marrying my cousin. Its so funny how many things are going on, the preparation for a union that will mark a new era in our lives. After this wedding, it will start a chain reaction. We are all at that age now and it’s the next logical step to take. My little sis is in the stages of planning a want to press pause and rewind back t the days when we used to go over to my aunts house to play for hours in the backyard while our mothers talked and cooked in the kitchen. In a couple of years, that will be me and my family. The cast of characters change but it’s the same play.

Welcome to the Family!

Yesterday was my friend Black 20th Birthday. We (the Youth in the 18-25 group) went over and made jokes, listened to music and played video games all night! I am extremely tired. It made me feel good to know that he is comfortable with us. He just joined our Youth Ministry earlier this year and you can see God is moving all over him. I thank God for His mercy and grace, He embraced us with arms wide open (I feel like singing the Creed song now, lol) and we began family as soon as we opened our hearts to Him.